Have you heard of Dr. Gary Chapman's best seller book; "The 5 love languages"? In case you have not, here are the brief introduction; With more than 30 years of experience as a marriage counselor, Dr. Gary Chapman has heard it all. He has helped couples at every stage of marriage and at pivotal points in their relationships - from those just discovering the joys and trial of marriage to those who are ready to call it quits.
After many years of counseling, Dr. Chapman noticed a pattern: everyone he had counseled had a "love language," a primary way of expressing and interpreting love. He also discovered that, for whatever reason, people are usually drawn to those who speak a different love language than their own.
Of the countless ways we can show love to one another, five key categories, or five love languages, proved to be universal and comprehensive - everyone has a love language, and we all identify primarily with one of the five love languages: Words of Affirmation, Quality Time, Receiving Gifts, Acts of Service, and Physical Touch. Check this website for the meaning of the 5 love languages (http://www.5lovelanguages.com/learn-the-languages/the-five-love-languages/)
You may be wondering why I mention it. As I moved on to my story, you will understand what was the reason.
For the whole month of August, I had been very emotionally unstable till I developed panic attack. Apart from jobless issue (I'm going to start work 3rd Sept yeah! \(^_^)/), I felt that Mr Ong wasn't concerned about me. He was busy gaming, clubbing and smsing. I found it so hard to communicate with him. There wasn't any opportunity for quality time without him doing his stuff. This had been the issue for past 6 years and I felt that it was getting worst! Determine to do something to our marriage, I decided to drop him an email. It was on 1st week of August (Sometime, face to face talk could lead to heated argument or emotional cry. Emailing is better at least it gives you time to think before you write it down). Apparently Mr Ong read it because we had a talk on the issues. He promised that he will try to improve the situation and be more sensitive to my needs. However as time goes by, I see no improvement. Eventually it led to emotion snapped and panic attack. I behaved like a crazy woman! It was so bad that first time in my life, I actually not afraid of committing suicide! Realizing that this is unhealthy and scary, I had to put an end to it.
I began to pray desperately to GOD to save me. It was then I heard a voice said,"love language". Thinking that I must be too tired, I ignored it. However as I pray, the word kept coming to my mind. Suddenly I recalled that I had bought a book, 'The 5 love languages', many years back. I searched for the book and re-read again. As I read the book, everything started to make sense. The reason why my emotion broke down was because my 'love tank' was empty. Mr Ong had failed to speak my love language to refill my love tank. As my 'love tank' was empty for long period, it eventually lead to break down of emotion. The letter I wrote to Mr Ong was an indication of my inner cry for his love. It actually indirectly stated my love language! To be fair to Mr Ong, I didn't speak his love language as well. As his 'love tank' was equally empty, he withdrew. He didn't know about the concept of love language. To him, he felt that all couples are the same after few years of marriage. What we are experiencing, no chemical in the marriage, are normal to him. However to me, because I always place GOD as number 1 in my life, my understanding of GOD's marriage are different from him. For example, Quality Time, he thinks that by physical presence with me is consider quality time. However, the real concept of quality time is focusing on your spouse and not doing other stuff, while spending time with her/him.
At this moment, there is nothing I can do except pray. Let GOD intervene this marriage. After all, I had done my best in communicating with him. Even though Mr Ong said he will try to learn to speak to my love language, I couldn't help but feel that he still does not understand my cry. I really want to break the curse and only GOD can do it.
Hopeful
LC
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Tuesday, 28 August 2012
Saturday, 25 August 2012
Comfort
Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted
- Matthew 5:4
Jesus is clearly not speaking here of every kind of mourning, some of which is due to the natural consequences of sinful living in a sinful world. Rather, he speaks of those who mourn for their sins, in repentance, recognizing their wickedness before a holy and good God.
It is the "broken and contrite heart" that God will not despise (Psalm 51:17).
Remember the tax collector in Jesus' parable? (Luke 18:9-14). He could not even look up to heaven, the burden of his own sin and guilt weighed so heavily on him. He smote his own breast and cried "God be merciful to me, the sinner." This man, Jesus said, went to his home justified before God.
True, spiritual grief is God -- not man -- centered. People often "mourn" for their mistakes, but only because they are caught in a crime, or suffer themselves, or see loved ones suffer. But all sin (not just "big" sins) should cause the penitent heart to mourn, knowing that it grieves and dishonors God.
True spiritual mourning also leads to true spiritual repentance, a turning away from the old way of life and to the way of Christ (2 Corinthians 7:10). Mourning that is only outward and temporary will not be comforted.
But how will those who truly mourn for sin be comforted? How will they be consoled when they are mourning because of real sin, real burdens, and real repentance? They will be comforted because, through Christ, the source of their grief will be removed.
In Christ, they find forgiveness, healing, and the power to overcome sin. Ultimately, they will be comforted when they are removed from even the very presence of sin, in heaven. Blessed they are, indeed, who mourn for their sin.
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How great God is! I was just mourning for the sins I committed when my daily devotion regarding God's forgiveness came. I led a very stupid life and made many mistakes which were sins. Somehow lately all my sins surfaced and the guilt and grief weighed so heavily on me! I believe Satan was attacking me again wanted me to feel bad and lousy.
However I have a faithful and good God who tells me through this daily devotion that when I truly repent, all my sins will be removed through Christ.
Thank you God for your love and forgiveness. Thank you Jesus for removing my sins.
Grateful
LC
- Matthew 5:4
Jesus is clearly not speaking here of every kind of mourning, some of which is due to the natural consequences of sinful living in a sinful world. Rather, he speaks of those who mourn for their sins, in repentance, recognizing their wickedness before a holy and good God.
It is the "broken and contrite heart" that God will not despise (Psalm 51:17).
Remember the tax collector in Jesus' parable? (Luke 18:9-14). He could not even look up to heaven, the burden of his own sin and guilt weighed so heavily on him. He smote his own breast and cried "God be merciful to me, the sinner." This man, Jesus said, went to his home justified before God.
True, spiritual grief is God -- not man -- centered. People often "mourn" for their mistakes, but only because they are caught in a crime, or suffer themselves, or see loved ones suffer. But all sin (not just "big" sins) should cause the penitent heart to mourn, knowing that it grieves and dishonors God.
True spiritual mourning also leads to true spiritual repentance, a turning away from the old way of life and to the way of Christ (2 Corinthians 7:10). Mourning that is only outward and temporary will not be comforted.
But how will those who truly mourn for sin be comforted? How will they be consoled when they are mourning because of real sin, real burdens, and real repentance? They will be comforted because, through Christ, the source of their grief will be removed.
In Christ, they find forgiveness, healing, and the power to overcome sin. Ultimately, they will be comforted when they are removed from even the very presence of sin, in heaven. Blessed they are, indeed, who mourn for their sin.
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How great God is! I was just mourning for the sins I committed when my daily devotion regarding God's forgiveness came. I led a very stupid life and made many mistakes which were sins. Somehow lately all my sins surfaced and the guilt and grief weighed so heavily on me! I believe Satan was attacking me again wanted me to feel bad and lousy.
However I have a faithful and good God who tells me through this daily devotion that when I truly repent, all my sins will be removed through Christ.
Thank you God for your love and forgiveness. Thank you Jesus for removing my sins.
Grateful
LC
Wednesday, 22 August 2012
Reminder from God; Stronger by Faith
Stronger by Faith
by Joyce Meyer - posted August 22, 2012
The Lord is my Strength and my Song, and He has become my Salvation; this is my God, and I will praise Him, my father’s God, and I will exalt Him. —Exodus 15:2
God does not want to just give you strength; He wants to be your strength. In 1 Samuel 15:29 God is referred to as the Strength of Israel. There was a time when Israel knew God was their strength. But when they forgot it, they always started to fail and their lives began to be filled with destruction.
How do you receive strength from God? By faith. Hebrews 11:11 says that by faith Sarah received strength to conceive a child when she was well past childbearing age. By faith you can receive strength to stay in a difficult marriage, raise a difficult child, or prosper in a difficult job. Start receiving God as your strength by faith. It will quicken your body as well as your spirit and soul.
Once again, GOD reminds me to have faith. Look at my daily devotion today (See the bold words with yellow highlight). These are the challenges I am facing and to be honest, I am DYING! My dear sis in Christ, Mrs Ho, said the reason why I felt drained was because I did not fully surrender and trust GOD. If I did, I would feel peace and none of the above mentioned would bothers me. Well, she is right again.
As you know, my marriage did not have foundation. Meaning we did not have proper courtship to get to know each other more before we got married. From the time we know each other till married, total duration was 6 months! To make this crazy decision to get married was because I was pregnant. Abortion was not on our list hence marriage was the only way to keep the baby. Since then, everyday is a battle. Yes the word is "IS". A battle to improve this marriage. Without GOD in my marriage, I would be dead by then. The number of heart broken and tears flowed *probably could cause a tsunami!*could drives a woman to commit suicide. Mental torture wasn't fun at all! Of course I am still well and alive but that is not because of my love for son or whatsoever. It is because of GOD. I believe GOD is working on my marriage and I just need to stay faithful to GOD. There are still things to be ironed out...I also realized that the more I am drawn to GOD, the more Mr Ong would "chu pattern" to shaken our marriage. Spiritual warfare is on now. It is the war that GOD took over from me now to fight for me. All I need to do is to pray and wait. Be a audience!
Raising a difficult child is no joke. It is mentally, physically and financially drained. Mini Ong is a ADHD kid. Being a ADHD kid, he has to go for Occupation Therapy where he is taught to control his hyper activeness. On top of that, his English language isn't good too and has been put to speech review. If the review turns out negative, he has to go for speech therapy too *BIG SIGH* What made the problem worst is that Mini Ong has flat footed. He has to put a special insole to help develop his arch to be of normal. That cost us SGD 91. Insole got to change every 6 - 12 mths as his feet develop. You see how these expenses burn a big hole in my pocket :( Because of these, our marriage affected too. Mr Ong was in denial stage saying all these therapies weren't necessary. However it is necessary! If we ignore, Mini Ong's future development will be dark....I just surrender my worries to GOD. I can't take it anymore. HE shall take over.
The job I am going to take is going to be difficult (See my previous blogs). If I said I am not worried I am lying. However GOD again and again reminds me not to be afraid as HE is with me. Because of his assurance, I felt better and peace slowly set in.
In conclusion, I need to remain cool and let GOD's peace fill me. Be FAITHFUL!
Faithful
LC
Monday, 20 August 2012
No More Same Old Same Old
No More Same Old Same Old
by Joyce Meyer - posted August 20, 2012
Do not [earnestly] remember the former things; neither consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing! —Isaiah 43:18, 19
In today’s scripture, God says He is doing a new thing. As you move into the future He has for you, you will encounter all kinds of new opportunities, and challenges. The days ahead will be full of new experiences, things you have never done before. You may not know how to do them, but you will learn. Everything you are doing today was new to you at one time—and look, now you can do it.
Continuing to face new challenges and develop new abilities is extremely important to your growth and maturity. As you walk with God into your future, you will hear Him say, “You have not done this before, but don’t be afraid. I’m taking you to a place you have never been before. I’m going to ask you to do something you don’t know how to do!” God has already been where He is leading you, and He has prepared the way. Step out in faith and you will experience the faithfulness of God.
We think and say, “It’s time for a change! I need something new,” and then we hesitate to embrace that new thing when it comes. If you are ready for something new and fresh, don’t be afraid to embrace it when it comes.
Don’t stay trapped in the past. Let go of what lies behind and press into the great future God has planned for you. I can promise you: God is with you. He will lead you. He will strengthen you. He will help you.
Love God Today: With God’s help, I will embrace every new thing He brings into my life.
Once again, I feel so love by GOD. The above mentioned is my daily devotion. It speaks to me!! I had panic attack again today. Perhaps you are wondering why did I have panic attack when my job is already secured. Well this is the cause! To be honest, I am very scared of the new challenge that I am going to face soon. No doubt it is recruitment but this time, responsibility heavier. I am going to do things that I have never done before and I don't know how to do!....I am going to lead a bigger team and make changes to the recruitment team. Everyone, the stakeholders and my bosses, are watching me, seeing how I am going to perform miracle (existing recruitment is a big mess and my job is to clear the mess).
Yes I am a coward I admit but I think this is human nature! Everyone who is moving towards the unknown, will more or less feel scare and insecure. I suppose this is why I suffered from panic attack again. I acknowledge my fear and have been telling GOD truthfully. Guess what? GOD assured me HE is with me to face new challenges and develop new abilities that is extremely important to my growth and maturity. I have to be brave and faithful. Keep focus on GOD! HE will strengthen me and help me.
Happy
LC
Sunday, 19 August 2012
Comparing :( A wakening call!
Yesterday, I had a bad dream. I dreamt that I was pregnant and my family 'jumped' on me as if I committed the world greatest crime! In the dream, I shouted at them, "I am a Recruitment Manager and our household income is that of those who live in condos and private apartments. Why is that I can't have 2nd kid?" It was then I recalled that I promised my boss I will not have 2nd kid till I clear the recruitment mess, and my hubby is still jobless. On top of that, we still have debts to pay off. *Come on la...which Singaporean do not have debts?* Anyway as fast as the dream came, I woke up thanking GOD that it was just a dream.
This dream was disturbing. First, I am not ready to be a mother again. Why did I keep dreaming that I was pregnant? Secondly, why would my family so against me pregnant? Because both my hubby's and my jobs are still unstable? Or was because Mr Ong is still not ready for this marriage and not ready to love me??
I guess maybe this is going to do with my cousin who lately just given birth to her 2nd kid. While others tend to ask me when will I have 2nd baby, the other would oppose the idea. A series of negative incidents haunted my mind....
Since young, my family members have been comparing me with my cousin, saying she is prettier than me, smarter than me, married a good husband, her house is nicer and neater than me etc etc etc....
Since young till now, I have been living in this unkind comparison. I can't help by wondering why? What is the purpose of comparing me with her and why? Is it because they feel shiok by degrading me? Seriously I was feeling down and I told a Sis in Christ, Mrs Ho, about my dream and I shared with Mr Ong about my unhappiness.
Mrs Ho said, "GOD won't give you more than you can bear. HE knows when you are ready or not. This one fear that gripes you and you need to surrender. I believe HE gave you the dream to show you your fears. If you ain't ready for a baby then remember to take precautions until you think you are ready. GOD won't give you what you cannot take." Guess what? Mrs Ho is right! I am indeed fearful. Until I learn to face my fear, the fear will keep haunting me. By facing my fear, I have to learn to fix my eyes to GOD always and surrender to HIM.
Mr Ong assured me that I am not in anyway inferior than my cousin and I should not be bothered by it. He said I have to learn to ignore people's criticism. Though Mr Ong did not say focus on GOD, somehow, I got the message from Mr Ong that I should focus on GOD! One told me directly to focus on GOD and the other one told me indirectly.
I realized what my weakness are; I took people's criticism seriously and I lack of self confidence. I am fearful too.
Joyce Meyer's message today really speak to me. She said, "Let now be your time to go forward and be set free from the torments of comparing yourself with others and trying to be someone you’re not. God is proud of who He made you to be!" Isn't GOD amazing? HE is using Joyce to tell me to STOP comparing myself with others! HE is proud of me!
At this moment, I realized that to overcome my weakness, I need to focus on GOD. Man will fail you but not GOD. Focusing on GOD is my only breakthrough. I am so overwhelm by GOD's love! Imaging HE has been telling me HE loves me through different channels :)
No matter what happen in future, my eyes are on GOD only and I am to work for HIM not man. They can say what they want. My ears will not entertain them. Looking forward to my own breakthrough soon :)
Love
LC
Follow in Faith
Follow in Faith
by Joyce Meyer - posted August 08, 2012
by Joyce Meyer - posted August 08, 2012
I will make of you a great nation, and I will bless you [with abundant increase of favors] and make your name famous and distinguished, and you will be a blessing [dispensing good to others].
—Genesis 12:2
—Genesis 12:2
Obedience to God's voice was not easy for me when He first called me to leave the security of my job and start my own ministry. But, the verse for today is one that God used to speak to me and encourage me in the plans He had for me. It's easy to read this verse and think, Yes! I want to be blessed. That sounds terrific! But, we must remember that God required a sacrifice of obedience from Abraham before that great promise was fulfilled.
Abraham had to leave everything comfortable and familiar to him and move toward an unknown destination. Many people would find that unnerving—but Abraham didn't. Hebrews 11:8 says, "[Urged on] by faith Abraham, when he was called, obeyed and went forth to a place which he was destined to receive as an inheritance; and he went, although he did not know or trouble his mind about where he was to go."
When we obey God, we need to be like Abraham and not allow our minds to be troubled. When God speaks to us and leads us, we need to follow in faith, trusting and believing that He will bless our obedience and fulfill His promises to us.
God's word for you today: God is fulfilling His promises to you.
This is my another daily devotion for today (8 Aug) (I subscribed to 4 daily devotions keke). The company that I went for interview called me. HR VP offered me an Assistant Manager position but pay lower than my last drawn. Seriously I really don't feel peace accepting hence I rejected him. However, he wanted to arrange an interview with his boss who is the SVP. I knew the VP is sincere in getting me to join him hence he insisted of me meeting his boss. The arrangement was made to meet the SVP.
On the day of meeting the SVP (16 Aug), with GOD's grace, the meeting was smooth. She did not put me down or made the interview any tougher. When came to the offering part, again the offer remain. Somehow, I had the strength and confident to reject her! I said, "Thank you for the offer however I will not accept anything lower than my expectation. If you do not feel comfortable hiring me as Manager, I would suggest you drop me rather than go against your will, and hope and pray that I would meet your standard." SVP's eyes brighten and she said, "I like your confidence! You shall get what you wanted."
It was like "OMG!" I couldn't believe I got what I wanted! The best part was, during the interview with SVP till I made my stand clear, I had peace. Peace and confident were with me throughout my interview and I knew very well that these are from my beloved GOD! As I drew nearer to GOD, I feel HIS love for me stronger than ever. Though I know this role is definitely going to be very challenging, I know very very well that GOD will not place me there to die. HE will not place me in anything that I could not handle. I know very well too that HE will guide me to face my challenge. Isn't GOD great?
Just like my daily devotion, GOD once again reminds me to be like Abraham. Abraham had to leave everything comfortable to move into an unknown destiny. See what GOD had blessed Abraham! Abraham's faith, patience, and obedience to GOD had led him to receive more blessing from Heavenly Father!
Oh my dear beloved Heavenly Father. Thank you for your constant reminder to me to be like Abraham. To have constant Faith, Patience, and Obedience to YOU. Following YOUR way definitely not easy but because of YOUR guidance, I shall have the POWER to overcome any obstacle in my life be it work, finance or marriage. Thank you for YOUR unfailing love for me. I love you Father Lord. In Jesus's name, AMEN!
Obedient
LC
On the day of meeting the SVP (16 Aug), with GOD's grace, the meeting was smooth. She did not put me down or made the interview any tougher. When came to the offering part, again the offer remain. Somehow, I had the strength and confident to reject her! I said, "Thank you for the offer however I will not accept anything lower than my expectation. If you do not feel comfortable hiring me as Manager, I would suggest you drop me rather than go against your will, and hope and pray that I would meet your standard." SVP's eyes brighten and she said, "I like your confidence! You shall get what you wanted."
It was like "OMG!" I couldn't believe I got what I wanted! The best part was, during the interview with SVP till I made my stand clear, I had peace. Peace and confident were with me throughout my interview and I knew very well that these are from my beloved GOD! As I drew nearer to GOD, I feel HIS love for me stronger than ever. Though I know this role is definitely going to be very challenging, I know very very well that GOD will not place me there to die. HE will not place me in anything that I could not handle. I know very well too that HE will guide me to face my challenge. Isn't GOD great?
Just like my daily devotion, GOD once again reminds me to be like Abraham. Abraham had to leave everything comfortable to move into an unknown destiny. See what GOD had blessed Abraham! Abraham's faith, patience, and obedience to GOD had led him to receive more blessing from Heavenly Father!
Oh my dear beloved Heavenly Father. Thank you for your constant reminder to me to be like Abraham. To have constant Faith, Patience, and Obedience to YOU. Following YOUR way definitely not easy but because of YOUR guidance, I shall have the POWER to overcome any obstacle in my life be it work, finance or marriage. Thank you for YOUR unfailing love for me. I love you Father Lord. In Jesus's name, AMEN!
Obedient
LC
Wednesday, 8 August 2012
Ask Seek Knock (I thought I always ASK?)
~Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: for every one that asketh receiveth
- Matthew 7:7-8
Ask. Seek. Knock. Each of these verbs is dynamic, energetic. True prayer is not a lethargic experience; it is a vigorous participation in the plan of God. It is the soul's fervent endeavor toward the kingdom of God.
But each verb also connotes something else: neediness. One does not ask, if one does not need. One does not seek, if one has already found. One does not knock, if the door is standing open. Prayer is recognition that you need God.
The reason, therefore, that we have not prayed as we should is because we are either too spiritually lazy to labor in prayer, or we are too content to feel our need of God. Which are you?
Regardless, the good news is this: for those who awaken to their desperate condition and follow hard after God, God has promised universal acceptance and success. Everyone who asks will receive!
But perhaps you have not received. Perhaps you have not found. Perhaps you still stand at the closed door with bloody knuckles and a growing doubt in your mind. Why hasn't God answered? Why won't he turn the lock and swing open the door?
Do not give up, beloved. God always gives to everyone who asks -- he has given us his word. He will either give us what we have been begging for, or he will give something better.
No one will go away from the throne room disappointed, although you may have to linger there for a long time.~
This is one of my message from daily devotion today. Just as I was feeling depressed again, GOD reminded me to ASK HIM. "I thought I already ask you Father? I pray daily! I told you what I want daily. What do you mean by ask?" I asked GOD. "Ok I shall ASK again Father." I said to GOD. Getting into my praying motion, I started to pray telling GOD what I need and want. It was then something miraculously happened. Something struck on me that GOD is not telling me that I did not ask HIM. HE is telling me that no doubt my prayer have not been answered, HE has not forgotten me. HE is working in my life. GOD is never too late or too early. HE is on time. (see the above mentioned in bold) HE will DEFINITELY answer my prayer. GOD may not give me what I want but what HE gives is definitely BETTER than what I asked :)
Later today, the company that I went for interview last week called. The HR VP told me he already completed reference check with one of my ex-bosses (2 reference checks from 2 ex-bosses completed later) and he decided to offer me. Oh GOD I was so excited. However when I learnt the offer, I was disappointed and I rejected him. From Recruitment Manager role he offered me an Assistant Recruitment Manager (which I don't mind too) BUT BUT BUT salary is lower than my last drawn!! *Do Dong*.........................................
VP justified that he is not sure how good I am in handling the stakeholders and the rank and file staff though I came from MNC background. I was like duh...I reminded him that I did not come from MNC background from the start. I did local recruitment before I was given the opportunity to do regional recruitment. I started off recruiting rank and file staff before I moved to recruit 'atas' people. If I can handle stakeholders from the regions, I don't understand what made him thinks that I can't handle local stakeholders?
He kept reasoning that he has to see my ability first. I had the strong urge to tell him,"Hello uncle! Imagine you are patronizing a restaurant and all your friends who patronized the restaurant before recommended you the restaurant's signature dishes. Because you have not tried before and yet you would like to try, you tell the waiter you will pay half the price of the food first and if the food is really as nice as what your friends said, then you will pay the balance half." *Do Dong!* The equation doesn't work this way loh. After ding dong from me to him and to me from him, finally he said he will speak to his boss, Senior HR VP, and will arrange an interview for me with his boss next week.
*Big sigh* what a.....(Speechless). As a professional recruiter aka me (hohoho) I realized that if I ever join the company, I will have a hard time with the VP. I am such a small fly yet he has to consult his boss (Can't make decision). His recruitment idea is apparently OUTDATED! He doesn't even know the current HR trend..it is definitely going to be super duper challenging. I am not worried about the stakeholders but him! I wonder whether he could accept contemporary HR strategy. What shocked me (super SHOCK) was he asked for my transcript! He said transcript could tell a person's personality. *Do Dong!* Again, I reasoned with him. I gave him an example. I said,"my husband is academy smart. He never studied for his exams yet he could score A1. However I am the total opposite. I studied hard but will never score A1. A pass is consider good and whole family would celebrate. Are you saying I am inconsistent? I am incompetent? What do you think about people like my husband?" He was speechless. "Catchya!! neh net ni boo boo bleh!!~~"
Ahhh anyway I will email him my transcript and will meet his boss. I do not want to argue with him anymore. Seriously I am really affected by him but I know GOD will see me through. HE will give me the best. :) Stay hopeful!!
Hopeful
LC
- Matthew 7:7-8
Ask. Seek. Knock. Each of these verbs is dynamic, energetic. True prayer is not a lethargic experience; it is a vigorous participation in the plan of God. It is the soul's fervent endeavor toward the kingdom of God.
But each verb also connotes something else: neediness. One does not ask, if one does not need. One does not seek, if one has already found. One does not knock, if the door is standing open. Prayer is recognition that you need God.
The reason, therefore, that we have not prayed as we should is because we are either too spiritually lazy to labor in prayer, or we are too content to feel our need of God. Which are you?
Regardless, the good news is this: for those who awaken to their desperate condition and follow hard after God, God has promised universal acceptance and success. Everyone who asks will receive!
But perhaps you have not received. Perhaps you have not found. Perhaps you still stand at the closed door with bloody knuckles and a growing doubt in your mind. Why hasn't God answered? Why won't he turn the lock and swing open the door?
Do not give up, beloved. God always gives to everyone who asks -- he has given us his word. He will either give us what we have been begging for, or he will give something better.
No one will go away from the throne room disappointed, although you may have to linger there for a long time.~
This is one of my message from daily devotion today. Just as I was feeling depressed again, GOD reminded me to ASK HIM. "I thought I already ask you Father? I pray daily! I told you what I want daily. What do you mean by ask?" I asked GOD. "Ok I shall ASK again Father." I said to GOD. Getting into my praying motion, I started to pray telling GOD what I need and want. It was then something miraculously happened. Something struck on me that GOD is not telling me that I did not ask HIM. HE is telling me that no doubt my prayer have not been answered, HE has not forgotten me. HE is working in my life. GOD is never too late or too early. HE is on time. (see the above mentioned in bold) HE will DEFINITELY answer my prayer. GOD may not give me what I want but what HE gives is definitely BETTER than what I asked :)
Later today, the company that I went for interview last week called. The HR VP told me he already completed reference check with one of my ex-bosses (2 reference checks from 2 ex-bosses completed later) and he decided to offer me. Oh GOD I was so excited. However when I learnt the offer, I was disappointed and I rejected him. From Recruitment Manager role he offered me an Assistant Recruitment Manager (which I don't mind too) BUT BUT BUT salary is lower than my last drawn!! *Do Dong*.........................................
VP justified that he is not sure how good I am in handling the stakeholders and the rank and file staff though I came from MNC background. I was like duh...I reminded him that I did not come from MNC background from the start. I did local recruitment before I was given the opportunity to do regional recruitment. I started off recruiting rank and file staff before I moved to recruit 'atas' people. If I can handle stakeholders from the regions, I don't understand what made him thinks that I can't handle local stakeholders?
He kept reasoning that he has to see my ability first. I had the strong urge to tell him,"Hello uncle! Imagine you are patronizing a restaurant and all your friends who patronized the restaurant before recommended you the restaurant's signature dishes. Because you have not tried before and yet you would like to try, you tell the waiter you will pay half the price of the food first and if the food is really as nice as what your friends said, then you will pay the balance half." *Do Dong!* The equation doesn't work this way loh. After ding dong from me to him and to me from him, finally he said he will speak to his boss, Senior HR VP, and will arrange an interview for me with his boss next week.
*Big sigh* what a.....(Speechless). As a professional recruiter aka me (hohoho) I realized that if I ever join the company, I will have a hard time with the VP. I am such a small fly yet he has to consult his boss (Can't make decision). His recruitment idea is apparently OUTDATED! He doesn't even know the current HR trend..it is definitely going to be super duper challenging. I am not worried about the stakeholders but him! I wonder whether he could accept contemporary HR strategy. What shocked me (super SHOCK) was he asked for my transcript! He said transcript could tell a person's personality. *Do Dong!* Again, I reasoned with him. I gave him an example. I said,"my husband is academy smart. He never studied for his exams yet he could score A1. However I am the total opposite. I studied hard but will never score A1. A pass is consider good and whole family would celebrate. Are you saying I am inconsistent? I am incompetent? What do you think about people like my husband?" He was speechless. "Catchya!! neh net ni boo boo bleh!!~~"
Ahhh anyway I will email him my transcript and will meet his boss. I do not want to argue with him anymore. Seriously I am really affected by him but I know GOD will see me through. HE will give me the best. :) Stay hopeful!!
Hopeful
LC
Monday, 6 August 2012
Garden of Eden
It was early this year when the idea of buying over my uncle's flower shop came to my mind. I was talking to my youngest aunt, who is helping my uncle in his flower shop, where this plan came to my mind. Eventually, it revolutionized to own a flower shop without taking over from my uncle.
Initially, plan to set up business of my own was because I am jobless (yes I AM still jobless) and I thought about my mum and aunt. I thought If I could own a flower shop, I could let my aunt runs the business. She has the experience! As for my mum, I thought if one day she retired, she would have another option; ie to help out my business. Also for me, being an employee is always so insecure and unstable. The fact that I have been jobless for super long is an evidence of insecurity and instability. Hence it would be good to be my own boss :)
Well, it is just a dream. Dream is FREE! No harm dreaming right? lolx! Having this dream really push me to work harder to achieve that. I even had planned what I am going to do if this day ever come\(^0^)/. Things like business strategy, renovation, etc...Mr Ong was so supportive when I told him that. Since I had this dream, everyday I pray to GOD that if this is what HE wants me to do, HE will bless me with the finance to own it :)
Last week, I shared this dream with a sister in Christ. The first thing she said was,"How do you know this is not from GOD? Why would this vision of owning a flower shop came to your mind?" I was like.."ya hoh...I'm not a flower lover so I never thought of doing a flower business." But why was this thought suddenly popped in my mind? Not forgetting I do not have the capital to do business! However, she said, "If this is from GOD, HE will bless you. Don't worry about the finance and other stuff. Just focus on HIM." At that moment, I was so touched...
Ok, how does the Garden of Eden came into the picture? I was digesting what my dear sister had said to me when I suddenly had the urge to text her about the name of my future shop. Immediately she replied,"How about Garden of Eden?" I was like "Jesus I love this name!"
For Christian, Garden of Eden is not unfamiliar to us. In fact, this is GOD greatest creation! Ok to summarize: The Garden of Eden (Hebrew גַּן עֵדֶן, Gan Edhen), is the biblical "garden of GOD.
See Genesis 2-3
See Genesis 2-3
The Genesis creation narrative opens with God creating the first human, whom he places in the divine garden "in Eden in the east". God tasks the man to tend the garden, but forbids him to eat from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. God then forms a woman from a rib of the man to be a companion to the man. The first man and woman break God's command and eat the fruit of the forbidden tree, and God expels them from the garden to prevent them from eating of a second tree, theTree of Life, which would give them god-like immortality as well as god-like wisdom; a cherub and a flaming sword at the gate bars their return.
Because I love GOD, I would like to name my blessing after HIS creation as a constant reminder that I am who I am because of GOD. Hence Garden of Eden shall be the name of my future shop. <3 <3 <3
One day if this dream ever fulfill, I shall blog more about it. :)
Faithfully
LC
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Sunday, 5 August 2012
Expecting something good Part 2
I went for interview on 31st Jul 12 and on 1st Aug 12, the VP HR called me. He said he would want some of my testimonials and he will conduct reference check with my 2 ex-bosses. As Recruiter, I know that it means I am being selected for the role that's why they need my testimonial and conduct reference check.
Since then, I have been very happy and wait happily for the outcome. After all, I had done my very best in the interview and I trust GOD. If that is the job for me, HE will definitely make sure I'll get it. If not, HE will close the door. Whatever the outcome is, I know GOD has great plan for me and I should just trust HIM completely just like a child trust his parents without doubt.
GOD I am definitely expecting something good to happen to me. Be in career, marriage, and financial. I will expect something good to happen to me in all areas of my life. God is great isn't HE :)
My daily verse today says,"On this day of your life Klara, we believe GOD wants you to know that everything will be alright. It may seem dark at the moment, but don't lose hope. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, keep moving and you'll get there. GOD won't abandon you; let GOD be your light. It may take some time, but in the end, everything will be alright."
I am so confirmed that GOD does love me! This daily message is GOD telling me that HE is working on the broken part of my life and that I should just trust HIM completely. HE is never too late or early. HE is always ON TIME!
Hopeful
LC
Since then, I have been very happy and wait happily for the outcome. After all, I had done my very best in the interview and I trust GOD. If that is the job for me, HE will definitely make sure I'll get it. If not, HE will close the door. Whatever the outcome is, I know GOD has great plan for me and I should just trust HIM completely just like a child trust his parents without doubt.
GOD I am definitely expecting something good to happen to me. Be in career, marriage, and financial. I will expect something good to happen to me in all areas of my life. God is great isn't HE :)
My daily verse today says,"On this day of your life Klara, we believe GOD wants you to know that everything will be alright. It may seem dark at the moment, but don't lose hope. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, keep moving and you'll get there. GOD won't abandon you; let GOD be your light. It may take some time, but in the end, everything will be alright."
I am so confirmed that GOD does love me! This daily message is GOD telling me that HE is working on the broken part of my life and that I should just trust HIM completely. HE is never too late or early. HE is always ON TIME!
Hopeful
LC
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