I'm Back!!

It's has been quite some time since I last blogged. I wasn't in a mood to blog as there were negative things happened to me.

1st Bomb - Jobless

I didn't renew my contract because the term and condition offered to me wasn't appealing. After much consideration, I decided to take the risk of not renewing. It would also mean no income for me. Have to rely on husband for the time being till I found a career. I never like to rely on anyone for money especially I have earning power. However at this point, it is not up to me anymore. I suppose God wanted me to learn to rely and submit to my husband. Afterall, it is good to be protected. I would also think that God wanted me to learn how to manage my family too. When I was busy working, I hardly had time for family. My life was just work, housework and sleep. I didn't even want to talk to husband and play with son. I just wanted to have some private time by MYSELF. I really neglected them.

2nd Bomb - ADHD

Just as I was busy and actively looking for job, the next thing that happened that caused me to think twice about going back to work is my son. He is most likely to dignose with Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD). ADHD is a problem with inattentiveness, over-activity, impulsivity, or a combination. For these problems to be diagnosed as ADHD, they must be out of the normal range for a child's age and development. (http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0002518/) Because of that, my son has to go for intervention to help him with his motor skills development. The intervention will take place for at least a year for once a week or two. Without intervention, Mini Ong will face difficulity when he goes to primary 1. At the age of 5, he is already facing problem with writing, and Art and Craft. No doubt Mini Ong is a intelligent boy, but without good motor skill, his overall development will be affected. Co2 x 1000...

The intervention is only on weekdays. This also means that if I go back to work, who is going to bring Mini Ong for intervention? Both hubby and I can't take leave every week. Even if we could, we also don't have much leave per year to use. *Big Sigh* I am still praying for direction and solution. I need to be financially strong to send Mini Ong for intervention and at the same time has the time to bring him for intervention weekly. How am I suppose to do that? I really don't know...I leave it to God.

3rd Bomb - Mini Ong's mood swing

Mini Ong has been having mood swing lately. One min he is happily playing and the next he would be crying telling me he doesn't want to go to school. He would give me excuse such as "I am sick. Got stomachache so no need to go to school". The real reason for not wanting to go to school is because he has been facing tremendous stress in school. He was scolded by his teacher for unable to write chinese words and unable to complete the writing on time. For a 5 year old kid to come out with excuses and fake illness just to avoid school is very smart and sad at the same time. Smart in the sense that he knows he doesn't have to go to school if he is sick and thus fake it. He is thinking...But Sad is he started to lie at such a small age. It shows that Mini Ong is trying to protect himself!

ADHD kids have problem with motor skill hence affects writing as well. As a caregiver, the teacher is aware of Mini Ong's condition. However instead of shower him with more encouragement and care, she scolded him. I was very disappointed with the way the school handles my son. The school fee is not cheap as well! As I am not working, the childcare subsidy for non working mother is only SGD 150. That's means we got to pay SGD 600 per month after SGD 150 subsidy. SGD 600 for childcare fee is not cheap! To pay such a high price I expect good service too. It is such a disappointment that we do not get good service for such high fee.

I had spoken to the teacher and shall monitor again. If Mini Ong continues to feel stressed up going to school, I shall not hesitate to complain to MCYS.

Moving forward, I do not know what to do next except for doing my best for my family and live positively. God is my source of strength.I will walk according to God's plan for me.

加油!

LC

I'm going to Hongkong!!

Finally after a long planning and headache, I'm going to Hongkong on 6th Dec to 11th Dec :) This is my first trip with my husband and son. Oh man it is going to be interesting! I pray hard that GOD will bless us with unforgettable experience. Good experience.

I will be staying at Mira Hotel http://www.themirahotel.com/en/rooms.aspx

Oh man I heard the reviews are good and it is a 5 stars hotel! Look at the rooms. All of the rooms are so beautiful. Most importantly the hotel is located at 118 Nathan Road, Tsimshatsui, Kowloon, Hong Kong Hong Kong. The location is very convenient to shopping areas too. The thought of shopping, eating, relaxing and playing really excite me! Am super looking forward to my trip.

Oh! The temperaturewill be very cooling as well...The temperature can start from under 10^oC / 50^oF to around 17^oC / 62^oF, warm clothing is required.

Shall blog about HongKong when I'm back :)

Excited
LC

I am the "Prodigal daughter"

As a Chritstian, I believe "The Parable of the Lost Son" is not unfamiliar to the believer.

Luke 15:11-32

The Parable of the Lost Son

 ¹¹ Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. ¹² The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.
   ¹³ “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. ¹⁴ After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. ¹⁵ So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. ¹⁶ He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
   ¹⁷ “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! ¹⁸ I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. ¹⁹ I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ ²⁰ So he got up and went to his father.
   “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
   ²¹ “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’
   ²² “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. ²³ Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. ²⁴ For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.
   ²⁵ “Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. ²⁶ So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. ²⁷ ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’
   ²⁸ “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. ²⁹ But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. ³⁰ But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’
   ³¹ “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. ³² But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

I felt like I am the Prodigal son who was lost and is found. I have been a Christian since 1999 and was baptized in 2004. However I was never a staunch Christian. I did go to church every Sunday but didn't really feel a sense of belonging. I felt it was my responsibility to go because I am a Christian, not because I felt GOD's presence and enjoyed going. Soon, I became a 'part-time' Christian; meaning I did not attend service every Sunday. Very soon, I stopped attending church completely.

During these 'non attending church' period, I admit I was suffering. No support...spiritually. However not once God ever leave me. HE does answered my prayers though not all. When HE did not answer my prayer, it means it is not for me according to HIS plan.

I was sort of searching for my 'correct' church during these years. I went to other churches as well but I still did not feel a sense of belonging. To be honest, I did not know what I was searching for. Maybe I just want to feel a sense of belonging?

I managed to find a church that is very near my house, less than 10 minutes walk. However the teaching is about Book of Mormon which I do not agree with their teaching. On the day itself, I suddenly had a thought of texting my pastor from previous church. I knew she might not be in town as she is very active in Cambodia work. To my surprise, she replied. She was back on that afternoon. I think it is GOD's indication. Thing just come so smoothly.

I returned back to the church on the following Sunday. The feeling was like returning home after away for many years. This time, by GOD's grace, my hubby followed me. Though he went clubbing till 6.30am, he still went to church with me at 11am and was paying attention to the service throughout.

Prayfully he will go to church with me every Sunday. GOD is indeed great :)

 

Hopeful

LC

ANGRY!!! One incident after another WTF!

Incident 1

As usual, I religiously exercise using Air Climber daily for 30mins since 18 Oct. I badly need to get in shape before my Dinner and Dance which is on 18 Nov. However yesterday as I was exercising, my Air Climber deflated! No matter how I inflated the air in the climber, the moment I stepped onto the climber, it deflated again! How the Air Climber works is based on 'stepping on the air' concept. Now that the climber is deflated. How to step? The digital display isn't working as well! The digital display suppose to keep track of number of steps and calories bunt. How am I suppose to keep track now?

I called the customer service officer this morning. I was pretty pissed with the way she handled. The customer service lady told me they will send a technician to service the climber within 7 working days. When I asked whether they can expedite, the customer service lady said the company only have ONE technician hence the delay. ???? ONE technician only?? What kind of company is that? What if this one and only technician is on long leave? Who is going to handle customers' problems during his absence?? This is not the worst. What worst is that they will only replace a new one for me if the technician can't fix the problem. So I questioned her if the technician can't fix the problem, don't tell me I am going to wait for another 7 working days to get my replacement??!!

She said the replace climber will take less than 7 days. Still this is not acceptable! Luckily, she called me shortly after I hung up the phone, to inform me that they will replace a new climber for me. However it will be next Saturday instead of tomorrow. Delivery man is packed with delivery they said. Seriously I could have 'killed' them. I got to wait for another week before I could start my exercise. How to lose weight? I have to think of what other exercise I can do while waiting for the replacement. *BIG SIGH* well at least they tried their best to settle my problem. I just hope and pray that the replaced climber is not faulty sigh..

Incident 2

Mr Ong called me while I was on my way to work to tell me he had misplaced the house key. He searched everywhere (ps: my house is fucking messy now) but could not find it. He has 2 sets of house keys. He misplaced once that's why we duplicated another set. The duplicated set is suppose to leave it hanging beside the door for emergency purpose like this. However, Mr Ong has been conveniently took the key meant for emergency use and NOT putting it back to where it hung. Despite me reminding him again and again, he just refused to do so, happily left his keys anywhere without bother to remember where he placed. NOTE: Mr Ong is a VERY forgettful person. * Poor Mr Ong got Senile dementia at such a young age tsk tsk tsk* *Yes yes yes I know I am mean but I am still ANGRY* I knew if he continue to be irresponsible, history will repeat. I was fucking right! His inconsiderate and irresponsible act had landed me into serious trouble.

I had an important meeting at 9am but because he was locked in the house, I had to rush back home to open and lock the doors for him. Instead of feeling sorry and grateful that I rushed back, he scolded me the moment I reached home. He said I should not lock the doors and I should have checked whether the spare key was hanging there before I left the house. What the fuck is this??! As a Chinese saying 恶人先告状. This describe him the best! If he had listened to me in the first place by not touching the spare key and constantly leave his key where it belong, this would not had happened! 2nd time already yet he does not learn the lesson. Such an irresponsible guy to have the gut to accuse me. GOD I was and still am super mad at him. I never see such a guy in my life. Knowing that I had to rush back to office for important meeting, he didn't even offer to pay for my taxi fare! What a 'gentleman'. Ladies out there if you think he is handsome and nice by all mean have him! He should be grateful that I always clear his "shits" and no always think that he doesn't love me so can bully me at times. No point make myself  so lousy. I am so sick and tired of being taken for granted. Gosh I am still boiling with anger! 我不是好欺负的！

Angry
LC 

Air Climber is Awesome!!

Air Climber is really awesome! It finally delivered on Saturday afternoon and I only started using the Air Climber yesterday as I was down with fever. It came with VCD exercise instruction and diet Manuel to follow. I don't think I will follow the diet programme as the food is cater to Westerner. Quite tough to follow for Asian lolx however I'll definitely follow the exercise programme daily. I give myself 10 days to see the result kekeke oh man I am so so excited!

It was pretty tiring after the work up. The programme is great as it works on all parts of the body. At the end of 30 mins, I was already drenched with sweat kekeke and it felt so good after the work up. I'll definitely continue to exercise tonight and looking forward to see my achievement in 10 days time yeah!!

Of course drinking plenty of water is a MUST. Looking good is great but staying healthy is important and I want to achieve both :) :)

Shall blog again on my achievement in 10 days time.

Stay tune!

Motivated
LC

Air Climber!!

Finally finally finally! My long awaited Air Climber is on the way! Fastest would be this coming Saturday :) Ta la~~~~!!!

By right I should be ordering earlier as Mr Ong said he wanted to buy for me. Unfortunately ever since I told him I really really want to have it, quarrels set in...*SIGH* Whenever I asked him for SGD 178 to purchase Air Climber, we would quarreled (Don't wish to go in detail to spoil my mood).  Enough is enough!! Rather than "begging" others to buy for me, I might as well purchase myself hump! *lim bu wu backbone ok! NB! SGD 178 I don't have meh?!*

Anyway since I'm working from home today I thought why not I call the hotline to purchase? The transaction took less than 5 mins and I had placed my order! The customer service lady said fastest would be this coming Saturday if not would be next Saturday. Whichever the date the deliver guy will call me a day before the delivery. Ooooo am so so super excited. Finally I'm able to exercise at home hei hei hei..

Ever since I put on 10kg (yes 10kg! scary right? *shaking head*) This is how I look when I was 10kg lighter. Now..*BIG SIGH* Better not showing ha

 I've been very depressed. I tried to do some exercise near my place but the rainy days always spoilt my plan. I also tried to cut down on dinner but my weight still 10kg heavier than before. Losing weight really requires determination. Action speak louder than words. I really must action instead of dreaming my figure back to 10kg lesser. I'm glad I finally did it! Woo woo~~Hopefully after using the machine, I will regain my figure again and become pretty woman!

~Pretty woman, walking down the street
Pretty woman, the kind I like to meet
Pretty woman~

Shall blog on how the machine works for me. Stay tune!

Happy
LC

Heart Shape Diamond Ring

This diamond ring is very beautiful right? I chanced upon a heart shape diamond ring (Similiar design to the above picture. Note: The diamond ring above is from Cartier and is super ex ooooo~~) when I was shopping at Tampines Mall today. Guess what? It cost SGD 783! I was so tempted to buy man!

I never have a diamond ring before and always want to have it. What to do?...Diamond is girl's best friend! LOLX! Naturally I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. I have a strong urge to have it but somehow I dare not take the risk.

I'm going to be jobless in 2 months time and by right I should save as much as I can instead of spending on the "want". However by left, I never really have something I love. I have been working, spending and saving non stop for family. It is all about family but what about me? I need something to motivate me to work harder and to reward myself right? *Super BIG SIGH*

All the women I knew have a proposal diamond ring. I don't have...who to blame but myself..SIGH SIGH married a man who doesn't love me so I never have someone proposed to me let along putting on a diamond ring on my finger *damn moody ahhhh!!! WTF!!*

~I hate myself for loving you .
Can't break free from the the things that you do.
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you.~

 I always fantasize one day my prince charming would come to rescue me from 'hell' and propose to me with a 1 carat diamond ring! Oh man so romantic~~~ I wonder what is the feeling of being proposed...*melting..drooling...*

*wake up LC wake up! slap slap slap* ok ok back to reality. Since dont have, I might as well rely on myself right. So am going to buy one for myself to reward ALL my hard works for the past miserable 5 years *lao mao sai (tearing)* But but but...don't know when..maybe when I won lottery muhahahaha Diamond ring here I come haa haa haa~~ ok ok I will remember to buy lottery ha~

Actually there is one ring I always wanted to have but 1 carat is super ex loh...ta la~~!! Brilliant Rose!!

~ooooooo~ am melting again..isn't brilliant rose beautiful? woooo~~I'll definitely going to have it when I have the money muhahaha~

Till then, I shall continue see the ring behind the glass...wait for me ok wait for me. I'll be back!

~This diamond ring can mean something beautiful
And this diamond ring can mean dreams that are coming true~

LC